Friday, January 26, 2007
Forgive me for this post of mine today is a little bit nasty. I just can't help it but share it here! Perhaps,people will understand why?
Here's why..last night before closing my eyes to sleep, hubby facing at me in bed naked while reading his book,and so am I..I couldn't concentrate of my reading because I was so distracted of his face, grabi makautog manoy oi murag new born puwa puwa ang nawng makabasa as in..mao cge rako agik-ik ug ako...
Finally, fell asleep ug mura kabuntagon naman cguro to nga pagkalamia sa akong damgo oi..grabiii akong idol, na klasmet naku Jesse McCartney, cge siya sunod sunod sa akoa, kay naka gusto kuno siya sa ako, wow unya pud bogo kuno siya cge panoon naku sa exam, dayon ang uban kababaihan selos sa ako kay ako ra kuno gi sunod sa Pop Star dayon dumogon siya maau katawhan mo ingon lang ayaw lagi kay masuko akong Anne char! dakua atay naku oi..
unya dayon bi, cge kuno ko shot ug pics namu duha pero among mga dagway d jud mo lakra sa camera ug ambrot nganu ba..kadugayan mo larga na siya US HAAY wala na jud siya nakaagwanta..gi lips to lips na jud kos akong crush..wala gud naku panumbalinga akong bana kay makig hawk rako ni Jesse ataya hehe..
Pagmata naku gikwangan pakos akong damgo oi saon kadali nahuman ka guapo rabas akong kauban. Hangtud gud ron mo smile pa gihapon ko ka remember kos akong kabuang sa damgo gi kagirds naku ani!!!
Diara pics sa akong ka lips to lips oh...Dili pud ko kalimot nga sauna pud damgo naku gi mouth to mouth resuscitation ko ni Nick Carter..hehe actually it was Howie Dorough who saved me from drowning pero si Nick na ni baba naku..char! hehe ambisyosa ha pero mau nalang sa damgo gipatilaw ko nila Nick ug Jesse hehehe...
Search sa yahoo music ug Beautiful Soul para kadungog mo tingog akong idol Jesse lami au music!
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Mga sekreto sa buhay buhay,ito I'll reveal mine one by one!
1. Habol taga liog when I go to bed to sleep bisan paman alimoot or summer ug samot na ron tingbugnaw na. Pero di pud noon ko magbukot kay makalumos basta taga liog jud na kutob. Another thing is, need to have pillow in between my legs,no pillow no sleep.
2. There's always "hapin" sa akong mga tiil when I sit to watch tv ambrrrrot ug nganu kay d jud ko comfortable nga mo lingkod sa tv way cover akong mga tiil.
3. When I fart and it's really stinky,I ask my husband if he wants to smell/share it since it's so stinky and I give him boisterous laughs hahahaha. How's that huh?
4. Sitting on the toilet bowl and while nag-utong I pick up pieces of fallen hair strands that's anywhere in the bathroom. Right after shower, first thing I do is look at myself in the mirror and give myself a damn smile for thinking I'm pretty when I'm wet and fresh hehehe..
5. When I was still in the Philippines I used to wear a panty with padding so to make my butt look a little bit meaty coz I'm so conscious of my damn flat ass. But when I arrived here in US, I don't wear it at all for I know men would love lookin' at flat asses like mine. I tell about this to my husband and he just laugh at me 'coz he thinks no need to use padded panty for I have perfect ass(that's according to him huh!) oh char!
6. When eating I tend to paburot burot sa baba ug lamon lamon esp.if gutom na kaau ug lami ang pagkaon. Last weekend we went to a chinese buffet and I was unaware tungod kalami sa kugita lamon lamon naku maau bisan dagku ug hiwa,wala ko kahibaw ug wala ni sulti hubby nga d siya mo tan aw naku kung mo kaon kos kugita, ask ko why man diay mao diay kay lainan siya mag tan aw nga ang ikog nag ong-ong sa akong baba whoaa kabastos ..sorry jud! hehehe
I'm going to pass this tagay to Vhilma and Loloy
Monday, January 22, 2007
ALL MY BAGS ARE PACKED..I'M READY TO GO. I'M SITTING HERE IN MY COMPUTER WAITING FOR THE DAY TO COME I DEPART FROM HERE.
I apologize for I wasn't able to visit you for a few days. I just felt very lazy lately, the cold weather is a big factor and so I just want to sit ug mag loko maayo!
Shame on me,I only open my blog now when I have something to share on here. Perti naman naku kapoya oi. Sorry also friends kay murag halos dili nalang ko makita sa inyong tagsa tagsa ka panimalay but I manage to try to visit each of you there anyhow!
I want to share something about the various emotions I'm feeling right now. Only 6 days left and I'll see my family back home..it's gonna be my first visit since I came here in Ameriaca 11 months ago. I don't understand why I am sad nga unta hapit na naku makita akong mga manghud nga minahal..but the idea of leaving my husband behind makes me pout! Is it because I'm leaving the half part of myself here? and is it because I'm going to mingle with craziness and very makukulit family in the Philippines,or is it because I'm too concerned of how much I can spend when I'm there kay wala pa gani ko kauli gisaaran naku ani mao ni mao na...
Another thing that botherS me the most is that old folks close and not so close are expecting something from me and I'm afraid I failed their expectations kay igo lang baya sa family akong gidala, it is what they thought raba abi kay gikan ka asa dapita daghan ka kwarta while the fact ordinaryong mamayan lamang akong bana dinhi sa ilang Merika. Duh bahala nalang akong self mo handle ani later on.
grrrrr I don't know but for now I can't afford to smile or be excited...I'll see when I finally land in my home town sooner.
..I think it's time to go blog hopping while wala pa tapuli..see you all!!
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
I had so much fun outside today because when I got up early morning just to drink some water(it was just 7 a.m you know and it's still very early for me to be getting up) 'coz I felt thirsty...aandap andap..kay sa tagalog pa..naghiyong maayo mata kay katulgon pa jud maayo..unya pag yarok naku sa tubig nibukad ug nabuhi kalit akong kalag kay tiaw mo na nagputi napud ang kalibutan sa ka snow. So naabtik ug kalit imbis katulgon magic nga nawagtang kay ang bilatra gadali nga makagawas!
This is what I saw upon getting up this morning
Kinsa ba gud tawn dili malipay kitag snow oi..second time nani naku karon and this time it's thicker and whiter and lots of fun. Comfortable napud ko ni gawas kay nagputos naman ug klaro so I was able to stay longer outside compared than before.
I knew a night before that it's gonna snow today but I thought it will start @ 9 a.m pa. But to my surprise it's been falling since early dawn pa diay so ang ako naabtan kaputi nalang sa ground ug medyo nangahulog nga snow flakes.
I consider myself lucky because in Denton, where Janine lives, iyang snow didto nipis ra kaau diay igo lang nakaputi sa kalsada ug atop sa mga balay...unlike here, igo pud jud ko makapunit punit ug snow!
It's been great to have been able to fulfill one of the biggest dreams Lord and I'll never stop admiring your natural creations that brought me so much joy in the heart!
Of course it won't be complete without a video as well as pictures of me for remembrance in the coming years..
http://youtube.com/watch?v=xhqrwLWrSOk <----- video link..
Snow in the backyard is quite thicker than in the front yard!
@ a neighbor's pathway,sorry didn't mean to make that shape..looks like something else!
Monday, January 15, 2007
It's our third day of being in an icy world..with sleet,sleek and freezing rain grrr can really make you not want to go outside. I also heard on the news about a number of major accidents happened in Dallas just this morning alone. I don't know the sum of it all tonight though!
My dear diary, I am so so so glad and flattered tonight because I had my name parked on a certain website that helps people meet their lifetime mate(it's actually the site where hubby and I met) ehhermm Haze and Ivy know it for they are a big fan of it also. Asa na ba ko ha? hmmm Each time I log on cb I just park my name there especially in the main room and listen to other people's nonsense talks just about anything else under the sun. I would never attempt to click on the man's name to chat for they might be taking it wrong so I'd rather just wait who clicks on me first and chat.
And tonight, a few single men click on me and wanted to chat. No harm though 'coz it's clearly written in my profile that I'm happy with my marriage! So it must be understandable in their side that I'm not looking for a "kabit". They were nice,asking hints,suggestions and pieces of advice on getting a fiancee to US.
But what flattered me the most is the last man I was chatting with, wow on cb I looked at men as ordinary..plain as in simple guy.. but once I get to talk to some of them I didn't know they were such a big men in the industry they belong to, like Steve O'Brien, wow big time MUSIC WRITER and I was able to listen to the samples of his songs and I liked it,they are all nice or shall I say his music simply fascinates me! He sent me one full song of the title "What You're Getting Out Of"..and I was asking him where I can possibly buy his album or songs online!
But guess what? He said that he gonna send me other 4 free songs in my e-mail.. yeyyy let's see if he does hehehe and I so anticipate it ... as if I can't stop listening the songs for it's so cool and romantic like it can make a woman fall for him lolz..kidding...
And oh he's searching for wife hehe.. whoaa can't believe it, he's successful in his career and yet no wife? whatta! hehehehe.. I'm wishing that I can hook him up with my cousin and that they will keep in touch and see if they like each other sooner.... and wishing them luck lolz..crazy me!
If you have free time or is not lazy to open his site and try his music go to: www.steveobrienmusic.com and tell me what you think? hehehehehe...
I wrote it in my online diary for I think it's significant moment happened to me tonight!
CIAO THAT'S ALL FOLKS! TY FOR VISITING MY BLOG!
Sunday, January 14, 2007
Bugnaw jud ayo bisan naas sulod sa balay tulo sip-on nga tubig grrr ambot ug nganu!!!
Samotan pa jud ni ugma mas bugnaw pa..ice ug ice jud kaau whoaa..dili ko malipay..snow noon bi tagaki ko snow kay bahala tugnaw ayo!
Pahipi nalang kos bintana akong nabuhat ganiha Sunday man unta wala jud mi kagawas kay saon gisangag sa tumang kabugnaw..nice kaayo tan awn ang mga upaw nga kahoy kay dala sa taligsik ginagmay ug sa temperatura dili na matagak sa ground kay ma frozen dayon..so ang labas pretty kaau..when I got up from bed (past midnight) I saw sparkling lights of each branch of the tree, nasinagan sa kahayag gikan sa mga balay mura jud tinoud ug Christmas lights!
Haay simple pleasures in life that I truly admire! Unsaon kay mabaw ra kalipay,in short buang buang joke..
Happy breaking of dawn to me! CIAO! TY FOR DROPPING BYE FWENDS!
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Arrrggggss...happy,excited..mix of emotions...that's exactly how I feel today and maybe tomorrow and the next day! And why not? Though it's awfully freaking cold today I still like it because I can feel the breeze of America.
Before,I used to just watch it in the movies..I mean..the smoke that comes out from the mouth,I thought it was so cool you know..very kano..very America...and now..couldn't believe it I am experiencing the same right now hhehehehe...I'm just very "ihas" 'coz wala gud nis Pinas hehehe...
So when we walk outside and the weather is so damn cold like right now,I tend to open my mouth and play with the air...blow as much smoke as I can and hubby would thought that his wife gone crazy but hey I'm not, ok? Just enjoying it! My body don't feel cold at all for I am wearing the right clothes that suit the weather and boots of course! So I don't mind doing alot of walking outside!
I so liked it also when seeing running or parked cars covered with ice. Not snow huh,as in ice jud coz of light rain showers plus the cold temperature of 29 degrees Fahrenheit that creates it! And ohhh yyeyyy there's a chance of having a snow and ice tomorrow..I will see what I can do with it then...
That's all folks..just having a great time today with hubby!!! CIAO
Tuesday, January 9, 2007
Read this and you'll know why..I got this from a certain site and thought of posting it here so everybody can read this...it is a very touching story indeed.
On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene ten years ago.
The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets weresteadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost atthe same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.
Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.
Dew came into my life.
It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.
Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said,Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.
Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so.
I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.?I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.
However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.
Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner.I was sitting in front of the TV.
The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word.
Apparently,she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.
Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.
When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurtin her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to lether know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly,why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!
That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.
Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected tosee. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me,but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.
She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day whenwe divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished toend her marriage romantically.
I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly,Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhatupset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I droveto the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. Irealized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a longtime. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles onher face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.
On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. Inodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this.
I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now. She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger.
I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a senseof pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.
Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential partof his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly.
I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day.But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.
I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our life lacked intimacy.
I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened thedoor. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.
She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I canonly say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more.
Now I understand that since I carried herinto the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her untilI am old. So I have to say sorry to you.
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.
When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old.
Sos ma spoiled pud ta ani..d man noon ni karon pa nahitabo..kadaghan na nga beses pero duh ganahan lang jud kos akong bana kay sobra ra ka maayo..naa gani koy hugasan nag laundok wala naku lihoka kay hapdos lagi gamay akong kamot oi shalan ba sugot rapud nga maugmaan usa hugasan kay dili ako ang type mo gamit ug dishwasher kay gamay rami plato...
Ingnan jud naku siya nga "kabalo ka akong mama never jud na siya nitagad naku ug masamad ko,ikaw palang mao ganahan ko nimo maayo!" drama char oi! duh..bahala pud basta oi..mura ko prinsesa sa iyang mga kamot!
Hala ciao...thanks for reading ug naa man gani moagi diri!
Monday, January 8, 2007
And oh,it's amazing coz I was able to meet other filipinas that I've chatted on cb for a long time..wala damha magkita kita ra diay uban sa pundok,di ba nice? Ug wow..ang pinaka importanti ug dili mahimo ug walay PAKAL hmm..eskabetche,bam-e,pancit,bihon, pork ribs,bagoong ug uban pa especially ang palitaw gi lingkuran jud ni Janine whoaa..kay lamia kinsay gahimo ato????? Usa pa,si Janine Karaoke queen sinundan pud dayon ni Joan banos banos lang sila mga chada kaau kaysa taga Mindanao pa hehehe!
Mura jud ko buang kay there were 2 birthday celebrants man and one of the celebrants ay timingan kay preggy sos sa akong kabuang dumbol dumbol naku akong tiyan sa iyaha para matakdan ko..weeww wish ko lang no?
Also, what made my laag complete is that, I was able to play with Elijah(Janine's son),I saw Titing's new born,Kyla and at the party I played with another mestiza girl (Joan's daughter) weewww..hopefully next year if magkatapok kanya kanya na bitbit ug trophy..ug maayo unta usa naku sa ila nga maka trophy no?
o damu pagkaon with the pinay pies!
hala bisan nagkalisod singit pa picture kay mura wala sa bukid ba
anak sa akong ka chat sa CB kulot kulot mestiza
tug-an sa tinoud,guapa mi dili?
new born Kyla with the byotpol ledeys
oh pakal na unsa pay gihuwat nato?
It was indeed a long day for me because to get to Janine's house is an hour drive plus we went to Mc Kinney to see Titing's daughter which is another one hour drive from Denton and then to Plano where the birthday party was being held..and we drove back to Denton and wait for hubby to pick me up..wow grabe I was too exhausted upon arriving home I took a shower and went to bed..kay pwerti kapoya saktohan jud sa laag..
This is all folks!!! Thanks everyone for visiting my homepage even though it takes quite sometime to update here...gonna visit each of your houses there soon! WAV YA OL!